Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Pokemom's submission

A Cry in the Night


I’ve never told anyone that this happened to me- I guess I didn’t want them to think I was crazy. But it’s true- it really happened. As to if I’m crazy or not- I’ll leave that to you to decide.

A few years ago I was wakened in the middle of the night by the sound of a baby crying. Clear as day, I heard it. Now, the important thing to remember is- I did not have a baby in the house at that time. I was supposed to have one- but our baby had been stillborn a week before, and we were still slowing coming to terms with the fact that we would not get to meet this child in this lifetime. As I lay there, listening… I heard it again. The cry of a tiny newborn.

In the morning, I started second guessing what I had heard. I convinced myself that I just wanted so badly to hear a baby that my mind had manufactured the sound. I put it out of my mind, and didn’t think of it again.

However- a few nights later I was again woken from a sound sleep by the cry of a child. And I realized I was not the only one lying there listening- the sound had woken my husband, as well.

Those cries haunted me for quite some time... so much so that one day I hesitantly asked my neighbor if her grandson had maybe been visiting, that last week? Or maybe, had she heard a baby crying in the night? No, she hadn’t.

I have not heard the baby since. And yet, I wish I would. Occasionally, when I wake at night I’ll listen quietly and try to hear him. I don’t want to think that he’s left us entirely.

4 comments:

OldBoatGuy said...

I'm so sorry you lost your little one. I'm sure you heard him crying. I know our loved ones are very close to us here. Thanks for sharing.

My wife had three miscarriages, one big enough to see. We often thought about it as 10, 20 years went by. My wife is gone now, and if she would come back and talk to me, I'd ask her about our other child/children.

Yours is the only other entry with 500 WORDS OR LESS! We should win!

The Crash Test Dummy said...

Yes, thank you for sharing that. I really loved that story. My sister lost a baby too and it has been so hard on her. The wishing.

Oldboatguy, I wish our loved ones would come back and talk to us too. I'm sorry you lost your wife. I bet you miss her!!!!

Chris said...

This is an intriguing story. It is so shocking when you almost begin to believe you imagined it, but someone else hears it.

I am sorry about your loss.

Laura said...

{hug} thanks for sharing.


--oldboatguy-- I tought they were more like "guidelines" than rules.

I wanna win- something.